One Year and an Update

On May 14th it had been a year since we found out we were not going to be getting the boys. In God's goodness to us He gave us a vacation that very week. We didn't seek out that week to be gone, but that is when we were able to get the timeshare we were using, and for me, I see God's hand all over that. There has not been one day in the last year that I have not thought about those boys. I wonder how they are doing, I track in my head what they are probably doing developmentally, I wonder how their mom is, I wonder what happened to change her mind, I just think about them a lot. I am thankful that instead of being here reliving that day in my mind detail by detail, we were at the beach as a family with our sweet friends. 

Another aspect that has been hard is that we didn't think we would be a year out from that and still not have a baby. It has been hard for us to understand what God is doing. I look at Kaleigh's beautiful face everyday and am reminded that He has a great plan for us, because I absolutely cannot imagine not being her mom. And I know one day I will look into the face of another beautiful child and think the same thing, but the waiting is just hard. 

One update that we do have is that we have begun to work with another adoption agency. The agency we are currently working with doesn't really love their families working with other agencies. However, since we haven't had much movement with them and the only real feedback they ever give us is "everyone loves your book," we asked their permission to work with another agency and they said yes (much to our surprise!).

In January I began thinking about asking our agency to work with more agencies and therefore began looking into agencies. The problem I ran into is that most agencies were way outside our budget. I remembered though that my friend (and our adoption consultant when we adopted Kaleigh) opened an agency a couple hours from where we live. I looked into it and asked her if they were accepting applications and got the go ahead to apply. Once we got permission from the agency we have been working with we went ahead and turned our paper work in and got accepted. 

We don't know what God will do with this, but we are happy to feel like we were at least able to make a step forward in this process. So now we will be working with both agencies. We are praying God will provide a baby for us soon. Thanks for walking alongside us in this process!