Here we go...

Y'all, it happening. I mean it's finally happening. The paperwork is done, the profile book is finished and sitting on our table, the home visit is in the process of being scheduled....this is happening! We got an email late Friday with the days that we can do our home visit. We have sent in our request for the day and are hoping that it will be the week of Thanksgiving. If not then hopefully the week following.

As we have waited to get word from our agency on when our home visit will be scheduled, I have found myself getting frustrated that it's not going as fast as I want it to. Last week we were meeting with some friends from church and one of them prayed for us and her prayer was that we would trust God and His timing and talked about how He knows who our child will be already. Man that was good for my soul. God has got this. Just like He had our adoption for Kaleigh.

This weekend our church had a women's retreat and in one of the talks she talked about remembering God's past faithfulness. It's so funny how quickly I forget. I see God's past faithfulness in so many ways, but one of the ways looks me in the eyes everyday and says "love you momma." How quickly I forget. God was so faithful to us in her adoption. She is the perfect child for us and I know I have said it before, but we L-O-V-E her birth family. Like really love them.

Yet I forget that God will do the same in this adoption. I know that this adoption will probably look completely different from our first. But God HAS NOT changed. He knows who our child will be. He knows who our birth family will be. He knows how this is all going to unfold. Even when I don't.

I find myself not trusting His timing in all this and scrambling trying to get control over things that I have no control over. One verse that we read this weekend that was so good for me was Isaiah 30:15 "This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength.." My prayer is that I be quiet in my heart (not worrying and constantly over-thinking every little thing) and trust Him and His timing and in that I will find strength.

Pray for us as we move forward. Once we have our home visit, they will take our profile book and birth mothers will be able to look at it soon after. From there they have told us it could be a day or 2+ years. So as soon as our home visit is done we are back to waiting. Pray we will trust God during this whole process.