Where We Are

I always realize it's time to update the blog when I start getting a lot of questions about what is going on with our adoption. I so appreciate people asking us and seeing how much people care about us and about our child that we are waiting for.

The real update is there is no update. One thing about adoption is that it's a lot of hurry up and wait. We hurry up and get our paperwork in and then wait for it to be processed. We hurry up and get our home study scheduled and then we wait for it to actually happen. We hurry up and get our profile book ready and then wait for it to get into rotation. So lots of hurry up and wait.

So right now we are in another waiting season. Our book is officially "on the shelf" which means that birth mothers are able to look at it. Now we just wait until we get chosen. They have told us it could be a day or it could be 2 years and there is no way for them to know.  It is a little bit of a different process this time. Last time we got birth mother profiles and then said yes or no as to whether we wanted her to see our book. This time we said what we are okay with (as far as drug use, alcohol use, etc) on the front end and then they just show our book to those who fit within our parameters. So basically we have no idea when our book is being shown. We have the freedom to contact our agency at any time and ask how many times it has been shown and if there is any feedback on our book, but our book didn't go into rotation until after Thanksgiving and then they were closed a lot around Christmas/New Year's. So all that to say I doubt our book has been shown very much. We will call in March and see where we stand.

This adoption has been different in another sense as well. When we started the adoption process with Kaleigh we were coming from a hard place. We were so heartbroken and devestated at the news of not being able to have biological children, we were in such a low place emotionally from walking the ups and downs of infertility, we were in a place spiritually that is not a fun place to be-desperately trying to hope in the Lord while still struggling to believe. It was just hard.

This time we are walking into adoption from a place of blessing and joy. Kaleigh is such a blessing and a joy to us and we are so thankful to be her parents. When we were waiting to adopt her we often wondered if we would ever have children and if our family would ever grow. Now, we don't have that question. We have a child and we have an expanded family. We are so thankful for that. It really does make this adoption different for us.

The one thing that hasn't changed with this adoption is the desire for a child. We still have the same desire as we did the first time. We wait with expectation to see how God will choose to unfold the story of our second child. We know that if the months drag on and we still are not chosen, that we will battle through many of the same emotions. Our prayer is that we will be able to look back on all the Lord did in Kaleigh's adoption and take great hope in that. We have already seen and know we will continue to see the Lord's character play out as this story unfolds. We are so thankful that He is unchanging. Please pray for us as we continue to wait on Him. Pray that we will trust Him and believe His Word.