Just For Today

It's been a while since I updated. As usual, there is nothing much to update. We are still waiting to get matched with a birth mother. As usual, the waiting is hard. And as usual, the Lord is sustaining us.

This summer I went to The Gospel Coalition Women's Conference. It was so so good. The talks I heard were challenging and helped grow my view of God. While I was there, I heard about a talk given entitled "Walking by Faith When Dreams are Delayed" by Betsy Childs Howard. When I heard the title, I knew I had to hear it. As soon as the talks were posted to the website, I listened to the talk. It was so so good! There were several things that stuck out to me, but I wanted to share one of them with you.

She talked about how God's mercy is new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23). She talks about how God gives us the grace and mercy we need to face THAT DAY. She reminded us that we don't have to trust God with what's going to happen 5 years from now, we just have to be able to trust Him for the next 24 hours. She challenged us to ask ourselves "Can I live without _____________ for the next 24 hours?" If the answer is yes, then you can get through the long haul.

This was so so good for me because I get stuck in trying to play out my life and try to figure out what my life is going to look like and it can bring me anxiety. I often feel stuck in this adoption and feel like it is never going to end, so if I can just trust God with today then I don't feel as stuck. I just have to be able to get through today and trust what He has for me today. Most days, by His grace, I can do that. (notice I said most days!)

So this isn't much of an update, but just wanted to share something I felt like God has been working on my heart and how He's teaching me to trust Him.