Update on our life...

Sorry again that I haven't really updated in a while. Here is the update of the last few weeks...

First of all, we are under contract on our house in West Lafayette!!!!!!!!!! I don't think I can do enough exclamation points. We are so thrilled. We are suppose to close on July 30th so we are praying all goes well! It's funny because the last time I wrote a real post I talked about how God was telling us no for everything (our house selling included) He sold it that week!! It was so refreshing for us to see God do that. 

God has also provided for us here in that Heath's dad is allowing us to stay with him (which means no double mortgage-how do people afford that anyway?) God has also opened up another neat opportunity here for us when it comes to housing. Our sweet friends the Magnuson's are going to be going to China for 3 months for his work and have offered for us to stay in their house while they are gone! What a neat way for God to provide for us. We are super bummed they will be leaving because they're our only real friends here right now, but we are extremely grateful for their generosity and graciousness to us. So next week we will be moving into their house! 

During the time we are living there we are going to be looking for a house. We have already started looking at houses, but haven't really found anything that we like or that we think is a good deal. We are thankful that we don't have to be in a hurry to find something and that we can take our time and be patient. 

As far as the adoption, there's been no real progress. We had our profile book presented twice this week and were told no both times. It's hard to explain how it feels. On one hand we know God has perfect timing and He has the perfect baby for us, but on the other hand it's just hard and sad. We want to be parents so bad and want to bring our sweet baby home and it's just hard when we get told no. We have only presented 4 times and most people present a lot more than that so we are prepared, but it doesn't mean we're not disappointed at the same time. We also know that we have to buckle in for the long haul and can't expect it to go fast, but it's still disappointing. In a weird way it's like infertility. Every month I would hope I was pregnant only to be disappointed. Every time we present I hope we get chose and every time I have been disappointed. It's the whole hope and disappointment cycle. 

I think I get a little cynical too in all of it too. I think "it figures we didn't get picked." I know that is not at all the correct response. Part of me wonders if it's just a defense mechanism for me-I'm still checking my heart on all of that. I see how it leads me to not think correctly about God. Instead of trusting Him and being surrendered to Him I am questioning Him. My prayer the last two days is that God will allow me to think correctly about Him. I so want my heart and my mind to be set on Him and to be correct. Can you pray that for me as well? If anyone has any verses or thoughts on that I would love to hear-text me, message me on Facebook, leave a comment on here, etc. I need all the help I can get to believe truth! 

We recognize and see that God is being good to us in all of this, but it is also a struggle. We are thankful for all we are learning but also need lots of prayer as we go along on this beautiful journey!